Below is the listing of every poem I have done (that I could lay my hands on). I have published them backwards in date order, so the newest one will always be on the top.
This is the second time I have done this page, as I stupidly pressed something and lost everything that was on here, but in a way I am glad I did, because on hunting for them all again, I found some that I had missed the first time around and now they have finally found their way on here.
Would love to hear your comments (comment box right down at the bottom of this page)
Can you hear me?
Can you hear me screaming at the top of my voice
While my lips remain sealed?
Can you see me?
Can you see my eyes pleading with yours
Begging to be heard
I am reaching
Reaching out my trembling hand
Willing you to take it
I am pleading
Silently shrieking, ripping at my skin
For your attention
Can’t you see me?
Wilting like a dying flower in the sun
Desperate for your touch
I am losing
I am fading
I am hopeless
Can you hear me?
Flashing over, blinking light
Streaking through the empty night
From where you come or where you go
I can truly say I do not know
A hint of promise, a hint of fate
it leaves me breathless, but yet I wait
to wish upon a shooting star
and find the perfect one by far.
And as the lights streak through the sky
I touch my face and dry my eye
and dream that I will feel the power
of hope that's promised by a meteor shower.
As it reaches for my face
To see the fire touch your eyes
as your arms, my frame, embrace
To feel the penetrating heat
When your eyes upon me rest
And shivers travel down my spine
As your hands caress my breast
Oh how I long to feel your touch
Upon my aching skin
To feel the fire of passion burn
And my hands a-trembling
Please sate this desire burning deep
And quench my sexual thirst
Oh touch me now so I may feel
My heart about to burst
For death itself is drawing near.
Don't be afraid and do not cry
The time has come to say goodbye.
Do not worry, please stay strong
We're here today, but tomorrow gone.
Do not be scared, I'll hold your hand
And try to help you understand.
The journey's long, we've just begun
Now everything is said and done.
There's nothing left for you to do
This day would come, of this you knew.
Don't be dismayed of the unknown
For I am here to take you home.
Do not tremble, do not fear
You're not alone, for I am here.
For I am so hungry I'd eat a whole cow
That smell from the kitchen and it really smells good
Cause it feels likes years since I've had any food.
And just then the monster goes "Hi" in my head
This monster called Diet, I wish he was dead
He prods me and whispers this fact to my brain:
That food equals pounds on my hips I will gain.
But oh how amazing garlic potatoes would taste
Can't we forget about that extra inch on my waist
Melting chocolate right now would just be so great
Or a grilled sizzling steak, gently cooling on my plate.
But oh no, it's salad and leaves just for me
On a plate with some chicken and a side glass of tea
No sugar, no chocolate, just dumb diet food
All because of my need to look really good.
As I feel my way along the floor
Desperately trying to find the door
Every surface I must explore
Of this dark room that I'm in.
He'd hurt me when he'd grabbed me
For I had not seen him there
His hand striking out, grabbing my hair
My life plunged straight into a nightmare
Fear and dread now my reality.
And then I'd smelt his stinking breath
And though I did not know his name
To him, I knew this was a game
My heart raced, and my legs went lame
And I knew this meant my death
And even though I tried to shout
My mouth would not utter a sound
And lying bleeding on the ground
There's no one to save me, no one around
It was then I felt my world fade-out
And now in the dark, as I awaken
Unconsciously shed tears dried on my face
What and where was this awful place?
And of him there appears to be no trace
Or could I be mistaken?
Dragging down and suffocating
Down trodden and breaking
Lonely and forsaking
Into darkness so frustrating
3 July 2009
When the builders came early one morning
With their hammers and trucks, backed by conglomerate bucks
To the site of the old buildings falling
While the engines were roaring quite loudly
And the bosses stood there, drinking coffees and stared
Holding plans they had drawn up so proudly
Selling whatever was to your taste
For each inch of this land, and this they had planned
Would be built on with nothing to waste
And the builders were all running wild
What they found to their dismay, buried deep in the clay
Was the body of Debbie Rothchild
At the news of this horrible find
The investors were mad, all that money gone bad
And no way out of this terrible bind
And the conglomerates just let it be
And the lay of the land, didn’t change quite as planned
But bore witness to the death of Debbie.
13 April 2008
And before you quite realise, you’re 7 years ahead
The next you’re nearing forty, and handling teenage sibling strife.
All forgotten in the path of time, in memories where they hide.
And reminisce about good times that make me cry or laugh
People that loved and hurt me and people that I hurt too
To find the people I left behind and for friendships to restore
To tell them I am sorry that with time we grew apart
And that losing touch with all of them is the one thing I regret
12 April 2008
not a wail, not a sob, just a tear
as I lie on my bed thinking of you
and the memories we shared this past year.
things changed and of how we drew near
and I marvel at just how I'm feeling
and how much I wish you were here.
between us could simply disappear
and I'm thankful for the time spent together
after so many unproductive years.
on my pillow falls one silent tear
and I lie on my bed thinking of you
and of how much I love you, daddy dear.
While my eyes are filling with tears
If only I’d find the words to describe
When I think back on all of my years.
So much harder than I ever believed.
To say goodbye to my family, to the ones that I love
So much harder than I ever perceived.
I’m so happy I’ll be joining you soon
But my heart is so sad, even while I’m so happy
From these feelings, I am not immune.
And goodbye to the land of my birth,
Goodbye to family and goodbye to friends
I love you with all of my worth.
My whole life is starting anew
With my man by my side, and my children with me
Past this sadness, we’ll finally break through.
I’m not oblivious to how you feel, in fact, I feel the same
I look at you, and all these thoughts go crashing through my head
And believe me when I tell you, I’m living in so much dread
And knew from the start that leaving would mean a goodbye for you and me
And yet, as prepared as I am to go away, I’m not prepared for this
And the one thing I’m dreading most of all, is the inevitable goodbye kiss
Or because I’m silent and keep on smiling, that it’s not hurting me
I look at you and see your pain, and can only look away
Because I know no words can take away the pain we’ll feel that day
I’m sorry I’m taking your grandchildren, for this I’m so sorry too
It pains me more than you will ever know but this I have to do
And it’s not like its goodbye forever, just a start of something new
Mom and Dad, please understand that I’m going to be his bride
And that wanting to be together is our dream finally coming true
Please forgive that it has to be at the expense of us leaving you
And if fate so chooses, then one day perhaps a lot closer you may come to stay
It hurts really bad and I know it will get worse, when the day comes when we say goodbye
But it isn’t forever, its only for now, so Mommy, please don’t you cry
For loving me and standing by me, so unconditionally
We all know how hard it’s going to be on the day I get on that plane
But its not forever, and I know pretty soon, we will see each other again
And the days of your existence fades into forgotten years
When laughter and contentment seem alien to those
Whose minds no longer feel the joy and love no longer goes
When hope of life diminishes and hope of love is lost
When sleep is all that saves you but nightmares are the cost
When the hand of sadness tightens, paralysing you to breathe
And to close your eyes forever is all that you believe.
When memories are forgotten and despair is all that reigns
When feeling so alone and lost, in mindless empty days
When tears run rivers down your face and pools of water rise
To drown you in the blackened pit, your inevitable demise.
I’ve no advise or words to give to heal your damaged heart
No tenderness, nor love to give, nor help with a new start
The blanket of confusion, of aimless hopeless dread
Must lift from me before I speak wise words upon your head.
In utter disbelief and dismay
A sadness that spreads like a cloud in the sky
And rains down on this terrible day
As its people lie buried and lost
We cry as we witness the horror unfold
And with their lives, paid the ultimate cost
Leaving debris strewn all around
And as billows of smoke turn the day into night
Fallen buildings lie burnt to the ground
Our world, a safe haven no more
For the ones who committed this crime of pure hate
Leaves us sickened and shocked to the core
As the reality hits us like a wave
And we mourn for the people that live in the land
Of the free and the home of the brave.
They came and they destroyed.
They took your heart and raped it
And with your soul they toyed.
Are crying out in pain.
The system you must live by,
Is now your tears and shame
Your livestock slain and killed.
Your growing fields forgotten
The blood of your farmers spilled
I hear your calls and cries
I see the total chaos
And I watch as your heart dies.
Come closer and touch me and fill up this place
Take my hand and walk with me and don’t let me go
And we’ll be together, forever, I know.
Look up and remember I’ll always be there
To love you, to hold you and show you my love
Our lives fit completely, as if like a glove.
For I am here today and forever to stay
Though the miles may be many, and the road sometimes hard
The miles that’s been covered, we cannot discard
Together, forever, as its meant to be
Come closer, embrace me and put on a smile
Though apart for the moment, ‘tis only for a while.
She hadn’t gone looking, and wished it had been some other place
A party maybe, or at work, or perhaps even on the street
Would have been better, than spend hours on the net each night to meet.
She tried to talk to him, but his cockiness was met without warning.
Alright she thought, I wont talk with him anymore
And hit the exit to leave the room, as if finding a door.
A webpage of poems, a journal of her trials as she aged.
And sceptically she wondered what this man might be up to
But replied none the less, and that’s when her life started anew.
And pretty soon this girl realized her heart had turned to mush.
She tried so hard to stop it, from falling in love on the net
With a faceless man that she had not yet even met.
There was nothing they could do, but meet each other and wait
To see if this love that had happened across the miles on the net
Could be as alive in real life, or something they should forget.
To be with the man who had captured her heart like a sin.
And when they met, they both saw, this love was still real
And more determined than ever to make it work they did feel.
But of the long, hard road ahead, they could not even guess.
So in love and content, but as would be, their time came to an end
And she had to come home, a broken heart left to mend.
But swore that together, eventually and ultimately they would be.
He, as determined, kept the sanity in days that were bad
When the hurt of separation, threatened to drive both of them mad.
The loneliness and missing each other, locked away like a crime
For together, they were happy, as it was meant to be
Their love obvious, arms around each other, for anyone to see.
When time cruelly told them, he’d have to return without his lover.
And he did, and their hearts both shattered and torn again
But knowing, that the home stretch ahead they would win.
That nothing is impossible, if they are holding each other’s hand
That against all odds, they will survive, and together they will be
When all the paper work is over, and all the waiting sets them free.
You stand exposed to those you love
Yet torture them with fear
You yearn for love, you yearn for trust
Yet push away those who come near
Oh heart, you stand like icy stone
Yet burning with desire
The walls too high, the walls too thick
The battle lost, a dying fire.
Let go oh heart, and allow yourself to drown
Celebrate the death of insecurity
Celebrate the death of mistrust
Celebrate the rise to truth and unconditional unity
Let me show you what its all about
What happened, oh heart, to make you mistrust me so?
Allow the innocence of untainted love to take over
Come closer oh heart, and never let me go.
Words are words, and nothing more, if trying to deceive
Words mean nothing, to no one, when not coming from the heart
And words could soon destroy a love by pulling it apart
To those who refuse to believe in them no matter what the cost
Words are lost to those that do not give their love complete
And lost to those who do not trust and to those they do mistreat
How long can I keep holding on, when you won’t pull me near?
How long can ours, a love so pure, survive the test of time?
When all you say, are ‘words are words’ and all I do is try.
His bones a testament to his years.
His left leg, the weaker, seemed stiffer today,
And his hat, pulled down low over his ears.
As if trying to endanger his path.
He stepped with great care, his eyes on the ground.
Not a smile on his lips, not a laugh
It’s presence, an encouraging thought.
His body so frail, held up by a stick
But all those years could never be bought.
Where it dropped down deep into the sea.
The sound of the waves, as it hit against the walls,
Leaning over, he tried harder to see.
Leaning on the stick, he placed firmly in the ground.
Then he took in the beauty, the majesty of the water,
Smelt the air, and felt the breeze all around.
And remembered how things used to be.
A smile on his lips, appeared in a flash
When he thought of his beautiful Marie.
When she dug her hands into the sand on the beach.
How they’d walked hand in hand, as two lovers do
Making promises they swore they would keep.
When his life seemed to be at its best.
The love that they made. The magic they had shared.
That it would end, who would ever have guessed?
He wondered how things would have been,
Could he have loved someone else, like the way he loved her.
Would it have mattered, had he not touched her skin
No grandkids to sit on his knee.
No dreams of the future, no hope of new love,
They had died with the death of Marie.
His body protesting in pain.
Watching stones on the ground. Taking care not to fall,
Knowing that he would return once again.
Her world empty, and barren, and lost
The walls of frustration, encircling her mind
Realizing the ultimate cost
The longing for him so intense
And knowing that time was no friend of hers now
And logic, her only defence
Her life, a prison sentence to complete
This love she had found, so profound, so unique
Yet knowing all the odds they would beat
And knew it was no longer for her
So much to accomplish, so much left to do
But how to go on, was a blur
And her lover she would again see
And in his arms, she knew she would lie
forever, because fate meant it to be
Have you missed someone so bad, you mind began to ache?
Have you held onto the memory of moments lived in bliss?
Have you ever felt the pain, for someone that you missed?
I'd write them on this page, and then i'd try explain
If I could be with you, each moment I would treasure
Because loving you is something, i'll be holding on forever
To be with the one you love, to treasure and to hold
These tears can form a river, this love can break your heart
But I promise you my darling, we will not stay apart
Undeniably the fact
The uncertainty thereof
And uncompromising the future
Of unbridled love
I want this all to surround me, a million ways I want to show.
I want this divine ecstasy to take me all the way
I want so much to tell you, I want, I want to say,
I want, I want to tell you, I want so bad to tell
You of the way I’m feeling, how badly I have fell.
If poetry could explain, in words of how I feel,
I want, I want to say it, and maybe yet I will.
If words could just come flowing, if somehow there was a way
I want so much to find them , I want you to hear me say.
I want to say "I love you", I want you to know my heart.
I want, I want so badly, for us to never part.
I want what I have now, I want with every pore.
I want your arms around me, now and forever more.
Her hands in her hair, she pondered and stared at the moon as it cast yellow light
Across so many miles that the oceans divide, to the place that his presence did fill.
Awaiting one final message, one final goodbye, from her lover before she could sleep.
She smiled as she read it. He hadn’t forgotten and her eyes closed knowing he cared.
And soon time would show them, no distance would beat them, and their arms round each other they’d feel
It confuses, it hurts, it tantalizes the brain
It uplifts, it inspires, its tempts and can tease
And holds on so tightly, begging to please
It surrenders you helpless, that you cannot leave
It wrenches your heart, leaves it exposed on the ground
Then picks it up with such tenderness, like a jewel that’s been found
It captures the essence of a thousand moonlit nights
It is all these things that love means to me
And I wait, arms outstretched, allowing it to be
You have shown me that I can
You have shown me that perhaps things work
All according to a plan
You have taught me life’s sweet mystery
Shown me the beauty of the day
You have taken me to the pinnacle
Of the desires I contain
You have shown me what I thought was lost
Made me believe once more in fate
You have shown me, that with all these things
Nothing is too late
You have shown me once more to believe
In a love buried far and deep
You have taught me that forever
Is a certainty I will reap.
It’s difficult to explain
You fill me with such sweet longing
Totally obliterating the pain.
Your warmth, your love it leads me
To heights never before achieved
The emotions that overwhelm me
So much more than I believed.
No words could ever comprehend
This love I have for you
No words could ever quite express
These emotion’s deep and true.
Feeling’s like a roller coaster
Crashing headlong into my heart
Mixed tears of pain and loving
Knowing we will never part.
Of oceans not yet conquered
Of memories to keep
Of nights draped in shadows
Of secrets to reveal
Like snowflakes on a leaf tip
Like early morning dew
Like pearls deep in the oceans
And scattered diamonds on the ground.
Of our lives as we stand, always looking back
If all that we saw was only the night
Where darkness surrounds you and blocks out the light
If living is dictated by heart sore and hate
Regret for the past, always thinking its too late
If life is a burden of feelings of despair
Then perhaps it is time, to move forward if you dare.
Don't you know, there's much more, to this dead pointless life?
If we could look up, see what life has to give
Filled with promises of love, so much life left to live
If we could look deep into our souls then we'd see
Looking back's not the answer, but looking forward, that's the key
It's a long road this road, many travels I have had
It once more embraces me. I need only hold out my hand.
that clouds up your mind and won't let you out
For no other reason except for the fear
that eats up your mind and won't let you near
If these aren’t your reasons then tell me today
did you even care when you turned away?
I know without a doubt in mind what would be on top of my list.
I wouldn't ask for time to save all the money that I can
I wouldn't beg for one more day to finish what I had planned.
Is to take back things I've said and done to those unintentionally.
If only for a moment, Father Time, I would ask you,
To take back time I've spent doing things I knew I should not do.
Or time to reach the target that they set for me to meet.
I'd ask that you take back the time I've spent unproductively
And I'll use it on the things I know are more important now to me.
White walls around me, surround me still
Can you look over and see me within?
Can you play the Master, the breaker of this wall?
Or do I stay forever and wonder if it will fall?
That these walls around me, is what keeps me blind?
Maybe if we stop awhile, we'll see that it is true
That somewhere out, behind these walls the sun is shining through.
Let me be the one right now, to show you the Promised Land."
It could take forever, or it could take a day
But hidden behind these white walls, I know I will not stay.
The bitter pill, the wine, the song,
How long can I go on?
This feeling that you're out of reach
I wonder, do we belong?
The silent nights, the empty days,
Could this all be my fate?
Is it you, the one I love?
Or is it me I hate?
It could take the northern cross to guide the blind
It could take a sun kissed day to dry the dew
But it only takes my heart to lead me to you
It could take the smallest gesture to hold a hand
It could take a star filled night to realize a dream
But it only takes a moment for our love to begin
It could take just a knock to open a door
It could take only a second to start a life anew
But it would take an eternity to fall out of love with you.
There’s a time to give up, end this burning desire
All the words that I said, coming straight from my heart
Wish I'd never said them, never knew we would part.
I feel hurt, I feel used, I feel lonely again.
You said you've tried but you cannot let go it seems
Of the memory of her, as she still haunts your dreams.
Crying tears of goodbye as it lies in the dirt
Need to get up once more, dust myself off again
Need to look forward and remember, what is love without pain?
The sound of your voice, coming out of the gloom
I know its too soon
I know I should wait
Before giving my love up to this uncharted fate.
If I could love another, I know that I should
I know its too soon
I know I should wait
But loving you has happened, can't stop it, it's too late.
Your loving words, your soft heart, your mannerisms so kind
I know its too soon
I know I should wait
My heart, has its own mind, you cannot negotiate.
Your whole life I feel, I have become a part
Though I know its too soon
And I know I should wait
I’m sorry, but I love you, can't stop it, it's too late.
There’s no turning back, there’s no room for regret
Reminds me sometimes of the first time we met
And although our paths have crossed, it now seems to me
Two beautiful children were meant to be.
I know we can do this without a fight
We both know that things do come to an end
We've tried yet our marriage, we could not amend.
There's nothing ahead now, except maybe time
And as I go forward on this path that I chose
A chapter in my life, I will now close.
For I know the day is dawning, its no longer night
I know I am loved, by many its true
And I smile as I reach my hand out to you.